I am still in Michigan at this time, I am here for only one more day and have been here for almost a month. I will post after I get home to Utah about all of things that I have been doing here. I have gotten back into the habit once again of saying my prayers each night before bed and also in the morning when I wake up. It seems that since the death of Kayleigh I have done this without fail!! Thanks to Kayleigh for that!! Each night as I say my prayers i ask that she be told by God that I love her and give her a great big hug for me, I also include Matthew in that request!! I say allot of things in the prayers but I also include mom in each one. I ask that she in some way be given a comforting feeling that Kayleigh is where she needs to be.
Up until last night I had to just assume in the way that each day mom makes it through that my prayers were being answered. I went to bed just like any other night and after saying my prayers I turned out the light and layed down. I had the same dream over and over and I would wake up in tears each time it would come to an end. I dreamed of Kayleigh and she was perfect!! She was her but I can't explain what she looked like, she was different somehow, again she was perfect. I know her and I had conversations in each dream I had but the only words that I could hear in my head each time I woke up was, "Hi Mom" "I'm ok" and " I love you Mom" I have never felt so strong about anything in my entire life and I am still in tears about it now. I told mom abput it after crying upstairs for a little over an hour sfter waking for the final time. I said my prayers and cried a little more. I came down and saw mom, at first she didn't realise that I was crying and when she saw it asked what was wrong. I halfway debated on telling her thinking that it might make her upset but when I said my morning prayer I asked what to do and since the words would not leave me knew she was ment to hear them.
I think my prayers for mom and my prayer for Kayleigh has been answered and I truely greatful for that!!
I love you Kayleigh and thanks for coming to me!!
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Well, you got me crying again!
That is so priceless. What a neat experience. I'm so glad you got to have that, you were so close to Kayleigh and such a good sister. I'm also glad you got to share that with Mom.
That is so fantastic, Susannah. (And you were right about needing tissues!) I'm glad you shared with Mom too--I'm sure she needed to hear that. I have an image in my head of Kayleigh now too. I'm not sure where it came from since I didn't actually have a dream, but like you, I know she's her, just perfect.
no lie i have had a dream kind of like that...well not the comforting mom thing but seeing Kayleigh and how its her but she isn't like i know her and stuff and its amazing...i cant explain it...
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